Thursday, May 24, 2018

May Color Block Challenge

So....Happy Accident this month!

I was not paying attention when I pulled the fabrics from my stash for this month's color block challenge and I set them in the wrong order to was supposed to go from light to dark...well....I mixed up the medium and the dark fabrics....I am happy to say that this was a Happy Accident and I actually really like this month's block!

Monday, April 23, 2018

April Color Block

I do have to say that I love this month's block!  I actually really love the color, which is funny because I had to go buy fabric to complete this month's  For those of you not familiar, I am doing a monthly color quilt block challenge by Patterns by Jen.  This month, my block choice came from Powered by Quilting.

Sunday, March 18, 2018

2018 Color Block of the Month - March

I have to be honest with you guys, I am not 100% in love with this block.  This month I chose to use the pattern that Jen made (here).  Yellow is apparently not something that I use all that often in my quilts because I had to call on a friend to send me some fabric because who wants to buy 5 fat quarters (at roughly $3 each) to make one block....that is the same as at least a yard of fabric! 

Anyway.....back to the block....I made poor cutting choices and ended up not having a wide enough piece of plain yellow left to cut all of the background pieces.  So I used the only other yellow piece of fabric that I had thinking that it had to be different than the triangles....not sure that was such a good idea...I think that is where this block went sideways.....overall I am hoping that you won't notice it when the quilt is all put together.

Wednesday, February 21, 2018

2018 Color Block of the Month - February

No, the winter blues don't have me is this month's color for the 2018 Color Block Quilt Challenge by Patterns by Jen.  This month I chose to follow her block pattern, but since my blue stash is a little slim, I reversed the dark and light colors.  I love the way it turned out.

Wednesday, January 24, 2018

2018 Color Block of the Month
I am participating in this 2018 Color Block of the Month to try and use up some scraps.  I must say that the first block presented (here) was very scary to me for a January block.  However, the cool thing about this Block of the Month is that you can do anything in the month's selected color....this month Red.  So here is my block.  I didn't design it and off the top of my head I can't remember who did.  With this block under my belt, I actually think I might go back and try the presented January block, only maybe in white and red instead of all red.

Thursday, February 13, 2014 did January Go???

That is a question that I am trying to honestly answer.  When I break down the different parts this is what I get:

Fairly decent.  I would not say that my eating has been perfect by any means.  I am still working on drinking enough water and trying not to stress eat as the auction draws closer.

I can't say that I have been to the gym all that much.  I am continuing to work out with my trainer, but getting their on my own has been difficult.  Again, the auction is almost here and people are placing a lot of demands on my time to get ready.

If I am 100% honest, I am having trouble here.  If you have ready my last post about the Navy Commander you would probably know that I was shaken to the core and very, very, very angry at both this person and myself.  Myself for letting it get to me and thinking that in anyway he was correct. It was actions unbecoming of an officer.  Anyway I think the hardest time I am having was that I went to a private group and asked for a pep talk from people there.  The response I got was that I was completely wrong for thinking this person was out of line, that people have bad days and it was o.k. that he reacted like this.  After four different people told me that I didn't have a right to be angry I deleted my post.  The fact is that I still think I have a right to be mad.  I don't think that my feelings were invalid.  I am actually really hurt that this community of people who are supposed to be supportive were anything but.  It really made me question if I wanted to continue on my journey. 

Self esteem is something I have struggled with my entire life.  I was never the popular kid in school, I take a while to open up, but when you are in my inner circle you are almost there for life.  I worked very hard through high school to get good grades.  I worked my way through college most semesters while studying Mechanical Engineering at Purdue.  I know I am smart.  Getting married and moving to Seattle was tough, I have no family out here.  I got my first job and got my first taste of discrimination and unequal work assignments.  I got transferred from job site into the office with out a reason.  I was given very little guidance in how to do my office estimation job, then fired because I didn't know how to do it.  My son was stillborn at 22 weeks.  My second pregnancy was 16 weeks of complete bed-rest and 11 weeks of partial.  Yes, I struggle with self esteem issues and depression.

I am getting back on track.  The "Commander" can kiss my ass!  I have not been as active on the private group.  I have not left, but I am very selective about what I answer and/or say now....which to me seems not as authentic but.....

I recently read a blog post about this dad's experience observing another dad in Costco.  You can find the article here if you haven't read it.  It is old, from 2010, but the facts still remain that this is the time that shapes my kids and I need to be present to help them grow and not allow TV, X-box, or video games teach them.  I am trying.  Maybe I need to close my laptop between the hours of 6 and 8 pm?

Action items for the remainder of February:
1.  Drink 6 glasses of water a day
2. Track what I eat at least 4 out of 7 days
3. Work out twice a week
4.  Try a new group work out class that I haven't tried before.
5. Once a week take a 1 hour mental (aka me) time break - read a book
6. Have a friend "date" once a month - coffee, MNO, craft night., etc.

Thursday, January 23, 2014

Pep Talk Needed

I need a pep talk. This really has nothing to do with my One Little Word Authentic, but....I am in charge of my kids school auction and each school family is required to donate $$ toward the auction either in the form of actual $ or getting a business to donate. These donations were due before Christmas. A month has passed since they were due and I had to send a letter to the people who did not turn theirs in. I got back a hate filled, name calling, unprofessional e-mail... from a set of parents. To make matters worse these parents used the husbands rank in the military as a bully/intimidation tactic to make them seem more important. I tried to stand up and say that there was nothing wrong with my letter (even has my COO relative read it) and this was bullying. I was told to back off by both the PTO president and the principal. Why is it that even though I didn't do anything wrong I am still the loser here? Why do people like this get away this things like this? I am so mad at them and at myself because for the first 24 hours I really did think I did something wrong. I realized I didn't, so I got my ducks in a row to present that I didn't and now I feel again like I did something wrong. I am trying to be the bigger person here and tell myself to move on and just create the most wonderful event despite these people, but it is hard. Any advice?