Saturday, February 28, 2009

Furniture Stores

How frustrating can finding one twin bed be? Well, I am here to tell you, very frustrating. We stopped by Greenbaum's Outlet Center to find a double bed with storage drawers under it for $1000 by the time we do mattress and box springs. To boot, it was made of particle board (at least the drawers). Then we went to Stupid Prices...they had NOTHING. Plus, they are closing their Woodinville Store. We came home and I looked up Designer Furniture Warehouse in Snohomish....they are closing too. Craigslist people have nothing good and those that look good are from full priced dealers (see pic at right which wants $400 for the bed only, no mattresses)...I just want a bed for Connor, so I can move his bed into Wyatt's!!!
So, where or where have the furniture stores gone or where oh where can they be.

Friday, February 27, 2009

Downward Spiral? I hope not!

Heidi - had to be put back on the vent today. I actually found out from my mom who talked to her mom.

Me - What is wrong with me? I just want to be happy, why is that so hard? I am having a very difficult time right now and know I am starting to spiral downward, but I haven't been able to pull out. Sigh. I wish I could blame it on the weather, but it is bring and sunny today and I am dark and moody. Maybe there is nothing wrong with Connor and it is me. (slap to the face) Snap out of it woman.

Plus side, I don't have to work tonight!

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Tidal Wave of Emotions

Trying to digest all the things that have been happening around me has not been an easy task.

Heidi - It seems like I am bad luck. When someone asks how she is doing I say how wonderful things are and then "bam" I get a phone call saying that something has gone wrong. Yesterday I was in the re-sale shop buying some clothes for her and the woman who owns it asked about her since I was buying little girl stuff. I told her that she was a preemie and that she was doing well...then not 5 minutes later as I am walking out of the store I get a phone call that she is on the vent.

Connor - his preliminary testing shows no ADHD or ADD. He does seem to get easily frustrated and easily distracted. The psych guy thinks all this can be treated with some behavior modification. However before making his final report he wants to talk to Ryan and I seperately. Not sure what that is about. I know that Ryan and I disagree on some discipline...but Connor just does not respond to yelling, spanking, or really even time outs. Ryan tells me often he is surprised at how much of a push over I am. My nick name my dad had for me when I was little was "Ice Princess" because I had so little emotions. But losing William...I don't know, maybe I am too soft. Lord knows what his mom or dad would say if they knew Connor was having testing. Since they already don't like me I am sure there would be some choice words. He is getting some OT as well as PT because there is another little boy who goes at the same time that they "play" with. His PT seems to think it might do him some good and I can only hope it does.

Other babies - My friend Elaine had her baby and everything seems to be going good. She contracted 5th's disease while at the end of her first trimester and the baby developed anemia. He had to have an in utro blood transfusion. So far things are looking really good. My sister's friends Dave and Heather however have not had such a good time with their baby. Ella Grace has polysystic kidney disease, which is a recessive genetic. She has very little kidney function and both are quite enlarged. This is dangerous because she has no fluid with which to develop lung tissue and practice breathing. Unfortunately there is no way to tell on ultrasound how much lung tissue she does have and if she will be able to breathe when she is born (if she does not die in-utero).

Fargo Friends - He was laid off from MS, but just accepted a job today with another division of MS. Thank God...she is due Oct 13th.

Sister - has lost her job due to budget cuts. Calls me and wants to know about refinancing her house. I know next to nothing other than it is really hard right now. Her husband is also back in school and has had to drop to part time. I am not sure if they would qualify. Their house is no where near worth what they paid for it. Tried to tell her that then, worse trying to tell her that now.

Wyatt - is in the hitting, throwing, and biting phase...need I say more

DH - where to start....I my opinion he has been very selfish lately. He lifted very few fingers when we were in CO to help with the kids and when we got home. He is already planning another ski weekend without any kids ($$ from where, who knows). He was pissed when I asked him to clean up under the deck because we have kids coming over in two weeks and we wanted to play outside. Oh yes, how can I forget that my DH was talking/listening to my brother about how undisciplined Connor now I am the bad guy in this one too.

I feel so over worked, depleted, and tired that I have no energy for anything. Thanks for listening.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Nature's Glory

Sleeping Beauty


Beautiful Sight

Update on Heidi

My god daughter Heidi is doing well. She is just over a week old and so far (knock on wood) has NOT been on a ventelator. She has also increased her feedings from 4 cc's to 7 cc's and is now taking them every 3 hours instead of every 4. Please continue to keep them in your thoughts and as soon as I can get a picture of her up here I will.

When it rains.....

My sister lost her job yesterday....we kind of expected it since she is low man on the totem pole and the school had to cut 4 jobs due to budget reasons, but Lord please help her (and us)

Also, this is from one of my good friends...

As most of you know, Mike's Grandma has dementia and was in the nursing home.
She got pneumonia on Sunday and is now in the hospital.
Well, she's now taking a turn for the worse.
They did not expect her to make her through the day yesterday, but she fought it.
They don't expect her to make it to the weekend.
Please keep Mike's family in your thoughts and prayers.

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Good News, Bad News

Good news....Connor and Ryan are better....Bad News...I forgot to take my altitude sickness pills last swishing for me....Wyatt and I are in the condo today....AGH!!!!!!

Haven't taken many pictures, but going to get the camera to do just that now (I swear)

Friday, February 13, 2009

Please Tell me it is going to get better

So, here we are in Beautiful Keystone Colorado on a skiing vacation. We are supposed to be swishing down the slopes. Where am I? I am sitting in the condo taking care of a sick kid and a husband who scratched his eye.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

She's Here

Heidi Rose was born at 11:45 pm on 2/10 weighing 2 lbs 2.5 oz and was 14” long. Her cord prolapsed and there was no choice but to take her via C-section in 14 minutes as her life was in danger. She is currently breathing on her own with the C-Pap to inflate her lungs, but her eyes are open and she is kicking around.

Please pray that she continues to improve and that she does NOT need a ventilator to help breathe. She will stay in the hospital at least 1 ½ months. Katie will be in the hospital until Saturday.

Many thanks for the prayers and good thoughts.


Tuesday, February 10, 2009


As you can see by my previous post, my best friend is in dire straights. It is like re-living my nephews birth at 31 weeks a little over a year ago all over again, but knowing that at 27 weeks things are so much more fragile and the outcomes are more work and sometimes not so good. I have this big knot in my stomach that is making me sick with worry. Why does it feel so much worse? Probably because she doesn't have much support in Iowa. Her mom has a new job and can't take time off. Her husband is in school and has to work to pay the bills. At least my sister had my mom, dad, and her MIL and FIL.

Connor had his first round of testing on Monday. The guy said that he wanted us to come back to repeat the testing. He also said that Connor was a busy boy (aren't all boys) and he could see why there might be a question/problem of distractability. What does that mean? Does it mean that he didn't score high enough on anything to pinpoint a cause? Does it mean, he scored super high in one area, but the guy doesn't believe it? If he comes back with an ADD or ADHD do I accept it even though my sister a teacher has told me that she don't believe he has it and she has worked with a lot of those kids or that I don't think he meets all the symptoms on-line? I know there is no use worrying, what will be will be, but....I can't help it.

We leave tomorrow for CO and I wish I was excited to go. My stomach is in knots and I am ready to puke. Off to do more packing. Hopefully I will have some nice pictures to share when we get back.

Monday, February 9, 2009

More Urgent Prayers

My Best Friend Katie is 27 weeks pregnant with her first baby a girl (Heidi Rose) and her water broke last night. I am asking for everyone to pray for her and the baby. She needs to make it to 34 weeks….she is in the hospital in Iowa and will remain there. They have given her the first round of steroids, but does not have the second. Please, everyone, please pray for her.

Thanks so much,


Friday, February 6, 2009

Best Billboard

Don't worry about the Stock Market....Invest in Family and Friends.

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Please Pray...

For my sister's friends Dave and Heather and their unborn baby girl (Ella Grace).

During an ultrasound they discovered that she has a kidney defect that will require life long treatment.

10% of kids die in the womb

30% die within the first four weeks

Those that live will need to have dialysis and kidney transplants.

5 things I wish someone had told me....

1. That you can use conditioner to shave your legs...lots cheaper than shaving cream

2. That 5 1/2 was so much worse than 2 1/2

3. To ask for two squirt bottles after birth

4. Love Stinks (to quote Adam Sandler in Wedding Singer)

5. Being a mom will make you want to change your name

Monday, February 2, 2009

Why oh Why?

Why oh Why do kids always get up early when they go to bed late? My kids didn't get to bed until 8:30 last night and they were up at 6:45 this morning. Both are crabby and I am still tired. Ryan, Connor and I went skiing yesterday while Wyatt stayed with some friends. I was able to ski for about 2 hours before my knee started to hurt. I consider this pretty good. My boots were only turning my feet numb while we were actually waiting for the chairlift, but while I was skiing it wasn't bad. My thighs were burning like crazy, but I am so out of shape that is to be expected. This moring I am pretty sore, but the knee is still walkable. I have about 2 weeks to get in more thigh excercises at the gym (starting tomorrow)